Justice Antonin Scalia describes himself as married, politically conservative, and an Associate Justice of the Supreme Court of the United States. He remains close to his archconservative Catholic upbringing, but found himself wondering early Monday morning as he woke up "whether my dehumanization of gays is my ticket to hell, whether Jesus would love me but for that, and how good a Christian could I be if I struggle to believe that God loves homosexuals at all." For Scalia, and for many Christians of all denominations, homosexuality is one of those topics that "make us question if we should use the teachings of Christ to deprive the gay community of civil rights."
Scalia, while most of the time confident that gay marriage is against the constitution and God's will, continued to lay in bed and wonder for just a slight moment if his beliefs and actions are disagreeable or even aggressively offensive. At times he can't resist referring to homosexuals as "not worthy of respect or fundamental freedoms," something he thought for a quick second might not be in line with living his life according to the teachings of Jesus.
As his wife Maureen continued sleeping next to him, he briefly wondered "if homosexuality isn't a choice and if celibacy isn't the only biblical option for homosexuals other than loveless marriages between a man and a woman." He quickly asked himself "What if homosexuality isn't comparable to murder or bestiality at all? What if sex between two men shouldn't be prosecuted in the same way as incest, adultery, obscenity, and child pornography?"
Scalia continued his short-lived epiphany, "Maybe as a lifetime tenured figure in a central role in American governance, I should interpret law according to the constitution, not the Bible or my personal views… And maybe I could use my status as the longest-serving justice currently on the Supreme Court to protect individual rights rather than deny them!"
"But wait," a more common thought interjected, "the only ones dehumanizing gays are themselves. Homosexuality is a sin and an abomination to God." Scalia's rational thoughts continued to deteriorate, "Sodomy can be seriously unhealthy, not to mention unnatural. Jesus would want me to interpret the laws according to the Bible and our God-inspired constitution."
As the last moments of his lucidity passed, Scalia concluded during his short time of self-doubt that "God is more important than my country, my church, and ultimately the people it discriminates against," stating to himself that a sudden renewed belief in God is the most important thing he needs to remember when applying the law. "My God isn't simply the God I believe in, but the God I want to believe in and need to believe in to justify my rulings," Scalia told himself as he got out of bed.
Once again ending all thought on whether or not he is acting as a Christian the way God intended or if his beliefs should even be in consideration when ruling on civil rights, Justice Antonin Scalia returned to his chambers to prepare for two historic gay marriage cases that he will be hearing oral arguments on this week.